Saturday, October 15, 2011

Something BIG?

I became a christian in the summer 2005. To me, it seems a lifetime ago, but in reality it wasn't. I remember a conversation with my youth pastor at that time-- I remember telling him that I didn't know what God had in store me in the future but I felt like it was something big. Something important.

For many years I felt it was a calling towards missions. I loved going on missions trips and doing God's work in the mission field. Now that I think back, I was most interested in missions because I didn't fit anywhere. I had no place really in my family, after high school I hardly talked to any of my friends that I grew up with for 13 years, and I didn't possess any particular skill that would get me very far in life. I was lost and was constantly trying to "get to the mission field". I tried many times to get to Bible College so I could learn more about God's word and so I would have more opportunities towards missions. But, try as I might, I never prevailed.

God had other plans for me. In November of 2009 I met the love of my life, Lucas. And by June 2010 we were married! Whew, did that man take my life into full speed! I had much to learn as a new wife... I never realized how lost I really was until I look back to who I was before Lucas. God sent me the answers to my prayers through Lucas. My man isn't interested in money (well, I mean he is, but it's not his goal in life!), he's not interested in being in the CEO of some big corporation, he's not interested in fancy things (except for his guns and knives!), and he wasn't interested in having a modern wife. He didn't want a career woman or a women's rights leader, he was looking for his Help Meet. Little did I know what that was when I first got married!

He informed me that once we started having children that he wanted me to stay home, and then once they old enough he wanted me to home school the children... "Whoa, hold it mister! I'm not qualified for any of this! I wasn't raised to be a house wife, or a stay at home mother!"... It took many hours of talking to Lucas, talking to God, talking to my Mother-in-law to finally see that I didn't have to be qualified or raised to be these things-- these were the things God had intended me to be. He was my teacher and all I needed. Since being married I have learned A LOT! And I have never felt more "right" with myself or "right" with God. I don't feel like I need to be anywhere else. Yes, I do get restless somedays when all the house work is done and all I can think of doing is twiddling my thumbs but these times will pass and we'll have little ones to keep me busy for many, many years!

God thinks very highly of women and has given us a grave responsibilty-- he calls it "building a nation". How powerfully is that? We as women, if we decide to pick up the torch, have one of the most influencial and important jobs in life-- raising children and building a strong home for our family. God gave us this responsibility and too many women have dropped the ball running after selfish ambitions and dreams. Well, I am not going to be one of those women. I have much to learn but with God on my side and Lucas on my other I will succeed as long as I keep in mind what my true job is as a woman. God doesn't want sissy women, he needs strong, courageous women who are willing to sacrifice themselves for the Kingdom. And I can only hope that I grow and learn to be one of those women, and when I go Home I can only pray He will say, "Well done, good and faithful servant."

So, my idea of "something big" back in 2005 was a bit off of what it is today, but I know that God has me hear and no one else can fill my place. I have a job to do, and even though it's not exactly mission work, I still have a mission. To respect and love my husband, to build up our home to be strong, to bear and raise Godly children, and to "build a nation".

Sunday, October 2, 2011

On-Time vs. Time-On

Hello!
So, time literally got away from me! A small update: in June my husband and I moved to a small apartment in the same town and then went on a mission trip to Tijuana,MX-- we built a small house (something like a shed to us) for a family through Amor Ministries. The mission was a success. We came back to a very messy, new apartment but we slowly got it put together! Then soon after that we found out I was pregnant-- unfortunately I had a miscarriage at about nine weeks into the pregnancy =( It was a hard and painful process but we got through it and God is good. There is so much we can't see and understand, we completely trust Him with this situation and joyfully wait to meet our little one someday in the Kingdom.  Then my Father-in-law finished his second homeschool cirriculum, this one on Chemistry (see the101series.com). So, time as truly gotten away from me since the last time I wrote!

On more of a personal note: In mid-August I found out I had a gluten-intolerance! It blew me away at first because I thought I would only be able to eat fruits and veggies the rest of my life, but then soon came to find out that there are tons of gluten-free foods, you just have to know where to look and what to look for! I've had a lot of support and help from friends and family while going cold-turkey off gluten and learning how to rebuild my kitchen's ingredients! Also, I have started a study by Nancy Cambell called The Family Meal Table & Hospitality. It scriptually shows us (women) the importance of the dinner table. It goes into detail about what kind of food we should be serving our families. It is going to take me awhile to finish, it's quite a thorough study, but it will be well worth my time =)

Along with all those big events I mentioned, we've been spending time with friends and family as much as we can. Our work schedules have been off kilter for some time now. We don't usually have even two days of together anymore =( So, it's been hard to have a regular schedule together. Luckily, it will NOT be like this forever. Once I get pregnant again and/or we get all our debt paid off I am planning on leaving the work place and staying home to be a full time wife and mommy! Lord willing, I won't have to wait too terribly long! Oooooh, God has been so good to us. He's always provided for us; we always have food in the refridgerator and cupboards, we have a roof over our heads (and some friends as well! ;P We live in a triplex!). We have clothes, two running (most of the time!) vehicles, a nice bed, running water, blankets, internet, books, and a fish! How awesome is that?! I can't even fathom why He would be so kind to us.. I am definitely not the most disciplined follwer of Christ. Then again, He never said that I had to be the best to recieve blessings. . Blessed are we!

Lately, I've been meditating on a familiar hymn: 'How Deep the Father's Love For Us'. I never liked hymns much--my childhood was rather limited on the times I ever heard them. This hymn has been coming to me while doing daily things: washing the dishes, driving, while I'm at work, checking my e-mail, etc. And most times it makes me stop and ponder our Savior; so quickly I forget everything He has done for me. I forget the huge sacrifice He endured so that I may live in harmony with Him. I forget how amazing it truly was and what He had to go through so that I could be with Him. It's incomparable, really. What an amazing and inconceivable love the Father has and shares with us.

I hope my next entry will be back on track towards my original intention--or maybe it's going to take a turn for a different theme! We'll see!
Thanks for your time!

Monday, March 14, 2011

We, History?

The Ten Commandments were inscribed on stone before the Old Testament was written; The Law of Moses was now open to all--everyone's sin was exposed to them (1400-1500 BC).
39 books make up the old testmament; timelines, wars, history, family lines, and prophecies were spoken throughout these books-- the Law of Moses was stated among the books that Moses wrote (400 BC).

27 is the number of books that are in the New Testament; The Gospel, good news, prophecies fulfilled, instruction for the Christian walk after the veil was torn, the Great Commission of Christ, and the warning of Judgement day is stated throughout these books (100 AD).

Now, lets take a look at these times for a few minutes... God picked specific people to write these books of the Bible, they were God "breathed"; meaning yes, men wrote them, but God gave them the words to speak in these books; earthly/wordly ideas are not found in these books-- but God's Law's and ideas are. People don't condemn themselves...just ask yourself!
Back to the point, at the beginning of human time, the Garden of Eden, we began breaking God's Law-- Eve ate of the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil; God's Law was not to eat of the tree, and what did the woman have to go and do?? Eat it and Adam just had no idea what was going on! ;) God's Law was broken at the very beginning and so the sad song of humanity begins... The point of this small scene from Genesis is that we were tricked, decieved into not believing God's Word, God's Law. The serpent hardly had to question Eve and she gave in. Oh, what sad creatures we truly are... How long does it take to break in a wild horse? It can take months for them to even begin to trust us... It took Eve what, like 3 minutes max to believe Satan and his lies against God and His Law. From the beginning of time God's Law has been under attack... As we move through history into the years of the Old Testament we see God's Law (10 Commandments) being tried all over; fornication, lies, murdering, lusting/adultery, idolism, etc. Everyone had the Laws but they did not truly fear God's wrath; God gave instructions to be under His protection throughout those years, before the veil was torn and yet people corrupted His Laws. Thanks goodness we had good ol' Isaiah, Daniel and Ezekiel (plus others) professing God's words and making prophecies that would one day come true...

Now onto the time of the New Testament and Jesus walking among us; prophecies were fulfilled by the birth of Christ. As a man Christ began proclaiming he was the Son of God, and that He was the way to God. God was giving us a new way to be reborn through Him so we wouldn't have to pay the penalty of our sins. Christ and his desciples continually taught that Jesus was the way, the truth and the life and that no one comes to the Father except through Him (John 14:6). This was another of God's laws, God made another way for us to be with Him eternally, and yet people still strayed. Jesus knew the people would though; the pharisee's denied Him and stated that they followed the Law of Moses and He was a blasphemer; even though prophecy states that the Son of God would be born unto the world to save us from our transgressions, and that we would not see Him. During the time of Jesus we still were blind to His Law and ways, and he was right in front of us to have.
After Jesus rose again he fulfilled more prophecies and proved to those who didn't believe. Jesus instructed His desciples to show the way to Him, through the Law and Jesus' love for them. And look what happened to the twelve--all Martyrs, except for John, who was blessed with old age so he could bring witness and proof of the Judgement day to come in the last book of the Bible, Revelation.

By 500 AD the Bible began circulation everywhere and it was translated into over 500 different languages. And then by 600 AD all translations were outlawed except in Latin. And only few knew that language; in that time there was a lack of Latin literature because it was being withheld from the people. The 'Dark Ages' as we call it now was a time that God's Word was kept from the people and new ideas were being born, the Renaissance era took place during this time. The term 'dark ages' isn't used in texts very often anymore because apparently it gave that time a "negative connotation" but really people were being "enlightened"  by new ways of thinking; in other words, people learned that if they stopped following and thinking about God then their conscience would be free from guilt. The 'dark age' time can stretch  from 400 AD clear up to the 1400's. God's Law was being hidden from the people but of course truth, God's truth, can never be diminished.
Now John Wycliffe, 1328(ish)-1384-- He was quite the rogue. He was an english theologian, and reformist, quite the combination! He was a university teacher and he had followers called the Lollards, which, like Mr. Wycliffe, were a rebellious group who fought against the clergymen of the Roman Catholic church and like to focus on biblically sound reforms. John Wycliffe translated the Vulgate Bible (Latin translation) into English in the years 1382-1384 with some help from associates.It became known as the Wycliffe's Bible. Among these associates he had a student named John Hus (actually Jan Hus if we want to get technical). After John Wycliffe died Mr. Hus continued to fight for a reform of the Church. Mr. Hus was tried and found guilty of heresey against the Roman Catholic doctrines and was burned at the stake in 1415; Hus's last words were, "In the next one hundred years, God will raise up a man who's call for reform cannot be suppressed." Can anyone take a guess??? None other than good ol' Mr. Martin Luther himself! In 1517 Martin Luther translates and publishes the Bible into German using the Gutenberg Printing Press; and the Word began to spread... Martin Luther stood up against the Roman Catholic Church with his theses--he stated that the Roman Catholic theology was not biblical. The Catholic church at that time was teaching that faith alone could not justify nor save man-- but, had to be active in charity and "good works" meaning donating money to the church. Martin Luther states in his theses that forgiveness is God's alone to grant; people couldn't "pay" for their sins.
Luther posted this theses on the doors of All Saints Church on October 31 1517.
And this, my friends, was the start of the church reformation! Though keep in mind that John Wycliffe was labeled as the morning star of the reformation.

Now, I could go on forever and give you a history lesson up until now, but then we would never get back to my orignal point-- which I lost sight of myself there for a bit! The point I'm trying to show you is that from the very beginning of time, as we call it, God's word had been perverted, changed and tampered with.
And yet, the Truth of the pages always seems to make it through any trial... that alone should be enough evidence to people of its actual truth.

Now on to today...what are we seeing and hearing in our churches? Mainly we see license, which is the opposite of legalism. We see a "watered down" version of the gospel. The "backslide" rate of born-again Christians is phenominal! I think it's somewhere around 80%!! We are missing something here, aren't we Christians?? Why are the people of the Bible so much more spiritual? Why are they so strong? Why is it that when the Bible says the Holy Spirit went into someone, it actually brought about a major change in them, and today is seems so...lukewarm?
Why aren't Christians telling everyone they can about Jesus?? And when they do, why do they always seem to fall away??

It seems so hopeless, doesn't it? Why isn't the message getting through?? Well, I can probably tell you the answer but it didn't originate from me, and it didn't originate from anyone in this day and age--it came from the Master, the one who walked among us with a blameless life, the one who came to show us the way, the one who came to take our blame away. Yes, Jesus Christ...the one and only =) Jesus came to save the world, not to condemn... BUT the biggest point that seems to be hidden from us, left out of the equation is the fact that we are already condemned!
John 3:18 tells us that those who believe in Jesus are not condemned, but those who don't believe stand condemned because they don't believe...And what condemns people?? It is the piece I was missing from my witnessing for years...The Law! The Law of Moses! The Ten Commandments! These are the Laws God set WAY back when. This shows us our sin, and keeps us from justifying ourselves! This is the tool Jesus used all the time. The woman at the well, the adulteror, the rich young ruler, etc...This is the key being left out of the teaching and preaching today. The church today is teaching only one side of the equation. They are teaching the "Jesus Loves You" part. Which is great but without the other side, it's almost irrelavant! People don't care that Jesus loves them and is full of grace if they don't know why they need His love and salvation. If they don't see their sin and what law they've violated, then they really don't like to hear that they are condemned and going to Hell.
You have to show them their sin through the Law which God gave us, and then explain to them that our God may be good and loving but He is also just and perfect--so He can't let imperfection into His Kingdom. He can't let the murderous, adulterous, lying, thieving people go...there must be justice or He wouldn't be considered a good judge, He would be considered evil.
BUT, if you let people know that someone has walked into the courtroom and paid their fines for them it's going to matter to them that this person is Jesus. Then they will understand why they need his love, mercy, and grace.

Now, don't think me to be enlightened or inspired here, I am simply educated through so many different influences that we have in our time today; people who are finding the key to re-opening the door to our Savior that seemed to be lost for so many years.

Del Tackett
Ray Comfort
Kirk Cameron
Lious Giglio
Frances Chan
Bill Weise
And so many others...
But most importantly, the one who never lost it, Jesus.

So, my question is: Are we about to go through another "Reformation" in our churches today?

Friday, March 4, 2011

The Beginning

So, this being my first post I should probably explain the name and why I've started it; cliche`, I know, but it's a good way to start things out.
I started this blog because I do enjoy writing, and I can process through things better than just thinking thoughts in my head, writing/typing my thoughts makes the process go WAY faster! I'm not stating that I'm am any good at this writing thing, but one of my friends said I should start a blog; I had been toying with the idea of starting one for months now and she tilted me over the edge. So, here I am, writing my first blog =)
Now on to the name... I admit, it's not a very good name, I may change it in the future, but Coffee & Confessions to me is: Coffee is a drink most people have while thinking on/over a topic or issue, and we drink it while having a deep or light conversation with someone; it fits nearly every situation when it comes to interacting or pensiveness. Now, the Confession part of it is, the things rolling around in my head: confessions, ideas, retorical thinking, statements, revelations, etc...
I hope to NOT make this blog my diary, I am hoping it becomes an outlet to me-- I usually like writing about a theological topic that I need to finish thinking about, or an idea or statement that I think should be shared with others-- God gave us these amazing minds and if we are filled with the Spirit then I think God would want us to tell the world our ideas and musings.
Hopefully this will be more of a tool for me and you than anything else =) Until my first official blog, Sola Deo Gloria!! (To God alone the Glory!)